तुम्हारी झूठी इबारतें और तुम
कार के धुन्धलाये शीशे पर
तुमने प्यार लिखा, फिर पोंछ दिया
जब हाशिये से आगे बढ़कर तुम तक पहुँचा
उस पल में कुछ बोया था हमनें
गहरे विषाद में घुल कर
जन्मी थी वो जिजीविषा
ये वो क्षण थे, जो अब मेरे नहीं हैं
~To be continued.
But i don’t think i will comeback to it. I have struggled to put these lines. There is a bit of sudden inspiration behind these lines. I like “Mad Men” a lot. In season 5- Pete Campbell has a short lived extramarital relationship with a woman who happens to be his co-passenger’s(of daily commute) wife. After their first encounter they happen to meet each other at outside of train station. Pete’s car is parked parallel to his co-passenger car. The woman is sitting in car, they are watching at each other but off-course they can’t show that they know each other. Pete is dejected, because he knows what he has done is wrong but he wants more of her. The woman is almost emotionless.
Now they are about to start the car, the car windows are foggy due to rain and cold weather. She suddenly draws a “heart” in the glass of car window which is closed. Pete saw the heart. She slides the glass of car window down and then moves it up. The heart is wiped. She does all this when her husband is sitting right next to her and he can’t see any of it. I loved it but i couldn’t manage to put it into words. That is what happens to you when you have artistic temperament but you are not artist. Those 8 lines have taken more than 8 days.
Pete is bit relaxed now. Sometimes most dangerous, socially ethically wrong deeds makes us most alive. There is a thrill, some succmbs to it, some wants to. I understand the powerful emotional turmoil that happens inside us during those times. I am fan of that upheaval.